♥HOT MESS! Triple The HOT & Triple The MESS♥
The new Abby Abernathy is a good girl. She doesn’t drink or swear, and she has the appropriate percentage of cardigans in her wardrobe. Abby believes she has enough distance between her and the darkness of her past, but when she arrives at college with her best friend, her path to a new beginning is quickly challenged by Eastern University’s Walking One-Night Stand.
Travis Maddox, lean, cut, and covered in tattoos, is exactly what Abby needs—and wants—to avoid. He spends his nights winning money in a floating fight ring, and his days as the ultimate college campus charmer. Intrigued by Abby’s resistance to his appeal, Travis tricks her into his daily life with a simple bet. If he loses, he must remain abstinent for a month. If Abby loses, she must live in Travis’s apartment for the same amount of time. Either way, Travis has no idea that he has met his match.
Warning: This book is a drug, and it will suck you in, bleed you dry, break your heart, make you fall in love and then at the end you’ll be left empty, and doing exactly what I’m doing now, re-reading this book, making it difficult to say goodbye to this Beautiful and glorious Disaster.
Have you ever read a book before that felt like an autobiography of your embarrassing, and painful, yet exhilarating and the most romantic memorable moments of your life? Well Beautiful Disaster was that book for me. From the moment I began reading, I was hooked. It was like I became addicted to these characters, for a whole 24 hours of reading they were my drug of choice, and two days later I’m still in awe of this beautiful story of two of the most dysfunctional characters I’ve had the pleasure to read about. See for me that was the instant attraction with this book. Anyone that is familiar with my preferred reading taste knows I am infatuated with tumultuous, codependent, and self destructive characters in love, most likely because I can relate to those volatile relationships most. Instantly this book brought me back to my early 20′s in college, living in a sorority house and partying at out of control at the fraternity parties, and loving life so hard.
“I like the Au natural thing you have going on. Girls don’t come over here like that.” ”I was coerced into coming here. It didn’t occur to me to impress you,” I said, aggravated that my plan had failed. “Im already impressed. I don’t normally have to beg girls to come to my apartment.”
This book is classified as YA but it is so NOT YA, and it contains everything from jealousy, drunkenness, frat parties, sex, gossip, and dramatic misunderstandings that left me wanting to slap some sense into them, however if we didn’t have those misunderstandings then we wouldn’t have Beautiful Disaster and it’s on my list of favorites read during 2012.
“Shake in your boots, boys, and drop your panties, ladies! I give you: Travis Mad dog Maddox!”
Abby Abernathy whom I will later refer to as “Pigeon” (OMG I love this nickname) in this review and you’ll understand just why later has traveled far away from her Kansas hometown with her best friend America (whom I absolutely adore) to start a new life, forget past childhood horror stories and experience college life as a freshman. So when America asks Abby to accompany her and her boyfriend Shepley to a secret fight club match to watch Travis ‘Mad Dog‘ Maddox (also Shepley’s cousin and roommate) a bare-knuckle, gorgeous, tattooed, Smart, undefeated fighter, Harley driving man whore champion yet another fight.
It had always been a dream of America’s for us to date friends, and roommates-slash-cousins, for her, was hitting the jackpot.
Abby stands out as she’s the only one wearing a cardigan to such a barbaric event, but she’s enamored instantly by the atmosphere in the rink, and never does she guess that the shaved headed, tattooed, ripped muscled, ruthless fighter and mouthwatering sex pot such as Travis would even be interested in anything more than “bagging” with her “on his couch” and then never to be used again, because lets face it; with his gorgeous looks and bad boy charm all the college co-ed females are basically pushing each other aside just to remove their panties for Travis, because while he may be undefeated in the rink, he’s off the charts un-denied and undefeated with the ladies on his couch as well. *sigh*
“Oh my God! You’re killing me! That’s it. We have to be friends. I won’t take no for an answer.”
So when she meets Travis she has no intention of ever giving him the time of day much less a friendship because she’s determined to turn over a new link. She’s from a family of alcoholics and her father is an overzealous gambling addict that has no issue with using his daughter to settle his gambling debts, so she decides without even a second glance that she needs a “nice guy”, charmer that can give her the “normal” life she’s always wanted. As deluded as she was with her fantasies of a normal life, I can almost see her point except on in the first chapter we meet Travis Maddox and I’m immediately, swept away by everything and I mean everything about him. But I’m sure you can easily see that with Abby’s determination and Travis’ charm that this book is going to be filled with angst, and emotional turmoil that leaves me with a heavy chest at many times during this read. Remarkably I survived those moments, and I’m left to tell you that this is the book to read if you love emotionally codependent characters, who have irresistible charm and can’t walk away, yet can’t just meet in the middle.
“I meant what I said before. You need to walk away, Pidge. God knows I can’t walk away from you.”
Travis is a heart-breaker, oblivious to his effect on women because well lets face it, he’s infamous amongst the college co-eds as the undefeated bare knuckle fighter, with a flock of females relentlessly following him everywhere, doting on his every move almost as if he’s a rock star, yet they each seem to be surprised and upset when he doesn’t ask for their phone number after randomly hooking up with him on his couch! For reals? His reputation proceeds him, so this should come as NO surprise yet, it always does.
Here is an example below of his man whorish ways….
Travis rounded the corner in a pair of boxer shorts and yawned. He looked at his guest, and then patted her backside. “My company’s here. You’d better go.” She smiled and wrapped her arms around him, kidding his neck. “I’ll leave my number on the counter.” “Eh….don’t worry about it,” Travis said in a casual tone. ”What?” she asked, leaning back to look in his eyes. “Every time!” America said. She looked at the woman. “How are you surprised by this? He’s Travis Fucking Maddox! He is famous for this very thing, and every time they’re surprised!” The girl narrowed her eyes at Travis, and then grabbed her purse and stormed out, slamming the door behind her. Travis walked into the kitchen and opened the fridge as if nothing had happened. Travis stood behind the breakfast bar, crossed his arms over his chest ”What’s wrong Pidge? Hard day? ”No, I’m thoroughly disgusted.” ”With me?” He was smiling. I should have known that he expected this conversation. It only made me less inclined to hold back. “Yea, you. How can you just use someone like that, and treat them that way?” ”How did I treat her? She offered her number, I declined.” My mouth flew open at his lack of remorse. “You’ll have sex with her, but you won’t take her number?” Travis leaned on the counter with his elbows. “Why would I want her number if I’m not going to call her?” ”Why would you sleep with her of your not going to call her?” ”I don’t promise anyone anything, Pidge. She didn’t stipulate a relationship before she spread eagle on my couch.” I stared at the couch with revulsion.
He’s instantly captivated by Abby, because she doesn’t go out of her way to impress like all the other females, actually she does the exact opposite of them, and that just charms her way into his heart faster, the way no other before her has. She has made it clear to him that she is not interested in being one of the girls “spread eagle” on his couch, so when he offers her a friendship she reluctantly accepts, and they become the cutest more adorably charming best friends ever. I just love their friendship. This friendship becomes a shock to everyone at school and the highlight of the daily gossip because Travis doesn’t have “female friends” and yet they’re inseparable and he nicknames her “Pigeon” (oh be still my heart) you’ll love that nickname and the reasoning behind it, hopefully as much as I do. He actually refers to her as “My Pigeon” *swoon*
They’re daily routine consists of eating lunch together daily, at every female on campuses dismay, partying together, study partners (surprisingly he is a straight A student so basically he’s her tutor )below is an example of his enthusiasm for her getting top grades in her classes after he tutored her.
He tossed me over his shoulder, making his way through the crowd behind us. “Make way! Move it, people! Let’s make room for this poor woman’s hideously disfigured, ginormous brain! She’s a fucking genius!”
She becomes his good luck charm at fights, he says wherever he goes Pigeon goes, and he’s falling for her fast AND hard, yet the two involved (Travis and Pigeon) are reluctant to make any moved that will dissolve their precious friendship. Especially when she often reminds him that their friendship better be based on friendship and not an elaborate scheme to get her into bed. Ahhhhhh the angst in this book nearly killed me!
But this is just the beginning……
After being so close over the past two weeks, he makes a bet with Pigeon (unbeknownst to him she cannot resist a good wager) that if he can go an entire fight without the huge monster of an opponent getting one hit on him, then she must move in with him for one month (in a way to ensure their friendship remains) and if he loses then he must remain abstinent for one month. Oh boy, this is where the excitement begins and I’m left wishing I could erase about ten years off my life and experience the college life once again. As a matter of fact my friend Cimmaron said the same exact thing to me once we had both read it. She and I discussed and reveled in the idea that we should get us some fake ID’s, Botox, and enroll back into college as undergraduates just to experience this lifestyle and maybe a Travis Maddox for ourselves.
“I don’t want to sleep with you Pidge. I like you too much.”
He admires Pigeon, and she’s the only female that can “put him in his place” make him crazy with jealousy, he’s overprotective over her, and well I always love that in my heroes, but she is so dense that even though she is resisting his charms outwardly on the inside she is caving because she is catching feelings for him along the way (can you blame her? he’s incredible) she takes his overprotective behavior for being a “big brother” factor when in reality, it’s goes beyond that and he’s trying to hold back with her because he made her a promise that they’re friendship would NOT be a ploy to sleep with her, yet he’s slowly unraveling and can’t picture his life without Pigeon as his girl forever.
“I’m sorry, Shepley.”
He froze and wheeled around, with the face of a man that had reached his limit. “I wish you and Travis would just get your shit together! You’re a goddamn tornado! When you’re happy, it’s love and peace and butterflies. When you’re pissed, you take the whole fucking world down with you!”
This is an example of how their tumultuous relationship causes not only for them to suffer but everyone around them suffers including Shepley (Travis’ cousin and devoted boyfriend to America) and you can’t help but feel for him, as he suffers as he winds up in the middle of this beautifully disastrously charismatic relationship I fell in love with. Enter Parker, that’s the only introduction he needs Yuck because I don’t like him at all and Pigeon begins dating him right in front of Travis, oh and we get to witness the tragedy unfold. I especially grow fond of America, shes the ideal best friend, completely loyal, full of drama, yet sincerity and she is simply a delight though out the entire story.
“You’re not jealous, are you, Pideon?” “Jealous of what? The STD-infested imbecile you’re going to piss off in the morning?”
Over the time the lines between friendship and lovers gets muddy and it’s not only an emotional roller coaster to read, it’s also so much fun too.
“But I…..that wasn’t the only reason I took you to the fight. I wanted you there with me, Pidge. You’re my good luck charm.” ”I’m not your anything,” I snapped, glaring up at him. His eyebrows pulled in and he stopped dancing. “You’re my everything.”
I can think of a couple times I had to put this book down and walk away just to get my motions under control because the brilliant way that Jamie McGuire writes this story made me feel like I was the person involved in this romance. Travis tries hard to be a good boy, but he can’t help it he’s jealous, has a temper, and he does a few things that will once again cause that lump in your throat or heavy feeling in your chest to resurface, while he breaks her heart and she breaks his heart. I cried so hard in public at the gym nonetheless that when a woman accosted me in the bathroom as I fled the stationary bike much to my embarrassment, when she asked what was wrong, I was left with no other choice but to lie (I mean c’mon am I supposed to tell her that my book boyfriend in the book I’m reading started to cry and so I’m crying for him? I didn’t think so) and say my boyfriend has broken up with me and that I’m sorry to have disturbed her with my bathroom freak out (at the gym *gasp*) she proceeds to pat me on the back and tell me to cheer up, and things will work itself out….Well now that the sweet unsuspecting woman has no idea that I’m actually crazy LOL, I went back to reading and didn’t put it down until I finished! And then I re-read it again while writing this review.
“A toast!” he yelled. “To Douschebags!” he said. “And to girls that break you’re heart,” he bowed his head to me. ”And to the absolute fucking horror of losing your best friend because you were stupid enough to fall in love with her.”
This moment made my chest heavy once again, and put my stomach in knots again……
So despite Travis charm, and confident ways, deep inside he’s vulnerable and not sure how to proceed considering he’s never been in love, unsure of himself but all he knows is that without Pigeon by his side, his life will no longer be complete, now that he’s realized, his life was meaningless before her. He’s my favorite bad boy and I couldn’t resist his charms ever, and surprisingly because this rarely happens I blamed the Pigeon for the majority of their problems because shes a “runner” and even though he’s the “bad boy” his vulnerability with her leaves me broken for him a bit more than I was for her, even though many times my eyes watered for her, I was shocked that the times I was most distraught was when he was hurting the most!
His fingers lightly grazed my cheek. “I didn’t know you before. When you’re not there, I can’t concentrate. I’m wondering where you are, what you’re doing….if you’re there and I can see you, I can focus. I know it’s crazy, but that’s how it is.” ”And crazy is exactly the way I like it,” I said, leaning up to kiss his lips.
When I finished this book all I wanted to do was tell all my book buddies that if they have yet to read this then they must!!!!!! But I must warn you, this book is NOT for the faint of heart. It’s for those of you that wish to spend the entire day in angsty romance that will hold onto you relentlessly even days after you finish reading it!
“You know why I want you? I didn’t know I was lost until you found me. I didn’t know what alone was until the first night I spent without you in my bed. You’re the one thing I’ve got right. You’re what I’ve been waiting for, Pigeon.”
Most everyone knows I’m a HUGE Fifty Shades of Grey, and Bared To You fan, and while these books are very different than Beautiful Disaster yet it’s recommended for fans of those two books because the relentless dysfunction of characters in love are displayed with very similar when you think of insecure, confident, powerful, hot mess of totally dysfunctional characters, so if you can handle and enjoy a good emotional read that tugs at your heart strings the entire time you read it, yet at the end your left wanting more but the ending is completely beautiful nonetheless?
“I belong to my beloved, and my beloved is mine.”
Well if you can then please read Beautiful Disaster. Travis might be the boy your momma warned you about but I can assure you, he will leave you breathless and looking for key to his heart immediately upon reading this. If you like bad boys…..and lucky for me, I revel in them. This book is one of my ultimate favorite reads of 2012 and it was disastrously beautiful!! Please do me a favor when you do, and come back to share your love for this book with me.
“WELL I BELONG TO YOU!” The veins in his neck bulged as he shouted, and I met his glare, refusing to even flinch. He looked at my lips, panting. “I belong to you,” he whispered, his anger melting as he realized how close we were.”
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