I Really Wanted To Love This
In a future world, Vampires reign. Humans are blood cattle. And one girl will search for the key to save humanity.
Allison Sekemoto survives in the Fringe, the outermost circle of a vampire city. By day, she and her crew scavenge for food. By night, any one of them could be eaten.
Some days, all that drives Allie is her hatred of them. The vampires who keep humans as blood cattle. Until the night Allie herself is attacked—and given the ultimate choice. Die or become one of the monsters.
Faced with her own mortality, Allie becomes what she despises most. To survive, she must learn the rules of being immortal, including the most important: go long enough without human blood, and you will go mad.
Then Allie is forced to flee into the unknown, outside her city walls. There she joins a ragged band of humans who are seeking a legend—a possible cure to the disease that killed off most of humankind and created the rabids, the mindless creatures who threaten humans and vampires alike.
But it isn’t easy to pass for human. Especially not around Zeke, who might see past the monster inside her. And Allie soon must decide what—and who—is worth dying for.
Have you read a book before, and wondered if there was any chance you received a completely different review copy than your friends?? Well that’s how this book felt to me. I really had high hopes and expectations for this book. Several friends of mine were raving about what an amazing book this was so I downloaded it from Netgalley. Needless to say I regretted the 400 pages I forced myself to read. I’m not familiar with Julie Kagawa‘s Iron Fey series so I have nothing to go on with comparisons of her writing except that to me it’s drags on too long. Many times while reading I fell asleep and i fought to finish this book I really did. After page 400 is where I began my skim marathon. Well this book is almost 500 pages long, and it seemed to me that it could have been shortened and became a much more satisfying read. Makes me wonder if she if she was given a page limit requirement for this book?
“I was a vampire. And despite everything, I still wanted to live.”
In the beginning the heroine Allie who is fearless at times is attacked and chooses to become the very thing she loathes to save her pitiful life, a Vampire. These vampires are fascinating because they’re ruthless, evil and have long ago put aside their humanity. Allie decides she wants to cling to whatever humanity she can still grasp onto after the change and for that I admired her. She leaves behind her vampire maker Kanin to go on her own and find safety away from those willing to kill her. She then meets a rogue group searching for cure for the disease that leads to rabids and teams up with them seeking shelter and refuge yet she must hide who she really is for fear they won’t accept her. I found this to be sad, and I hate the thought of anyone having to hide who they truly are for the sake of friendship or love. Though for me the story is very slow paced this is where you could say it begins to reveal itself.
However, I didn’t hate Allie but I didn’t love her either, nor did I care for any other characters, especially not Zeke. Perhaps I’m being too harsh on Zeke because I prefer Alpha men, but he didn’t impress me nor did Allie. Quite honestly they both could have succumbed to fatal disease in this book and I wouldn’t have shed a tear, even at the end I didn’t. Basically I didn’t connect with the characters AT ALL and that is so rare for me. So of I cannot connect with the characters then I cannot fully appreciate a story.
It’s no secret I prefer a dark, and gritty read, and this book is gritty but just not what I expected and it just didn’t live up to the hype for me, as it did others. For those of you interested in this book please don’t let me lead you astray because many friends of mine enjoyed this book and several of my friends did not enjoy it, but you just might!
On a side note this cover caught my eye originally and I thought it was stunning, and beautiful, however after reading this book I’m highly disappointed in it. Allie the heroine is of Asian decent so why is the cover model white? Usually I take no issues when the cover model doesn’t fit the characters description, although when she’s of a completely different race I found this cover to be in poor taste.
I will not be continuing on with this series, however I know this book will be a tremendous hit amongst YA Vampire lovers, and perhaps Julie Kagawa fans.
ARC provided by Netgalley for Harlequin
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